I immediately decided that I would not take on something that I was not interested in
and not close in style. This is probably wrong. I've heard that at the beginning of my career (and I'm just starting my own), you need to take on everything to get to the top. I approach it in a different way: I create my own style, my own vision — and demonstrate it so that people come to me for it. Because if I take on everything in a row, I will hate this case.
I approach it differently somehow:
I create my own style, my own vision — and demonstrate it so that people come to me for it. Because if I take on everything in a row, I will hate this case.
Before I started shooting, I was developing photos.
And at some point I bought a film camera just to develop my first film on my own. I was shooting all sorts of nonsense and dreamed of developing it as soon as possible. I didn't care what exactly was on that tape. Now I film not commerce and not creativity, but everyday scenes, self-portrait, lovers.
Now it seems to me that I am treating other people.
Most often I find models myself and offer them my ideas
for filming. The fact is that basically I create photo interpretations of my dreams, which suggest the topic. The search and embodiment of femininity, finding yourself. I'm just looking for girls through Instagram, through friends. And in some of them I see a feminine spark that I don't think I have. And I want to photograph them in order to somehow pass it through myself and, perhaps, appropriate it. It sounds a bit anthropophagic, because in fact I can't completely appropriate someone else's features, I know that perfectly well. I sort of reflect them, admire them, and so I can look for myself.
photo interpretations of their dreams, which suggest the topic. The search and embodiment of femininity, finding yourself.
It sounds a bit anthropophagic, because in fact
I can't completely appropriate someone else's features, I know that perfectly well. I sort of reflect them, admire them, and so I can look for myself.
This is something I couldn't achieve by taking self-portraits.
Isolated self-examination does not help in the search. Interaction with other people is necessary. All you will find in yourself is a pile of some insults, memories, chewed—up stories that do not shine with novelty. Everything beautiful that you can create, you do not dig up, but construct. And people help you with this. Opposites attract, their collision releases energy — and everything spins.